Hello.
Just a little note of gratitude (and a warm hello) for all the new subscribers, thanks for taking the time to sign up. I wanted to say that I’m not entirely sure there is a coherent format to my blog at present but where I have no doubt is that this will not be used for professional purposes. I may mostly engage with the much maligned genre we call “confessional” writing as well as sharing poetry, music and whatever I deem beautiful and/or therapeutic. I think I’m a light touch. I’m a woman dedicated to embracing emotion, softness and aesthetics and will explore this without shame. I’m also a creature of habit and grew up in a cool generation (of the internet even?) and remain enamored with certain principles (an almost foolish dedication to the notion of authenticity, for example, which is really 90s of me). I’m sure you will get to know me if you decide to stick around.
But, the essentials: American/British/Korean/Japanese, grew up in a solidly working class environment as a child on both coasts of the US and then lived in the UK for many years. I have a lot of unresolved trauma mostly due to being motherless most of my life (she was schizophrenic and died very tragically last year). I have severe panic disorder among other trauma-based issues that I don’t like to group neatly into one diagnosis. I consider myself a leftist on the political spectrum - I don’t feel I have anything edgy to contribute to the discourse. I have a lot of patience for conversations about mental health. I am forever learning how to process my body. I admire the artist temperament when coupled with talent. I am not an academic though I find myself drawn to that space, despite not being a student. I want your freedom. That’s all I got.
I recognise this is all rather tedious, and I feel silly explaining myself because really, you’ll make up your own mind, right? I think people reveal who they really are over time. So I will just say thanks again and feel free to reply to anything I post via email. Comments and likes are turned off for the time being. I find that comment sections can be a bit ruinous. Also, I’m shy, or something along those lines.
Be well. I’m listening, I’m here.
Ami x